Feb 10, 2015

HERE’S TO NEW BEGINNINGS



For months now I have been obsessing over writing my own book. In an attempt towards this direction, I have scribed the initial words which I consider to be the first chapter of the book. I do not know what I am getting myself into in the long run, but anyone who is in love with words and convinced that they can learn a bit about putting the words properly into a sentence and taking their love into a whole new level like myself should once in a while indulge in fantasies about having a book by themselves in a shelf. My love for writing has grown tremendously over the past two years after I discovered myself through www.neibazfashion.com but it’s strange for me and anybody who has known me personally because during most of my childhood and early adult life I was a really reserved person and usually decided to keep most things to myself. This is a different experience for me because in writing, especially in personal writing like in autobiographies or simply daily posts on personal encounters like I do on the blog, it’s always about being honest about yourself and rendering your vulnerabilities out to the world. So now in a strategic bid to console my fragile writing soul, I have promised to bring my ‘book’ to light only until when I turn 35.
Away from my writing fantasies, I am planning my long-awaited relocation to my home up country soon during this month of February. This is a happy moment for me because I can finally take a break from the hustle bustle type of environment in urban life. Again, almost in equal measures to the former excitement, I feel horrible because I have to leave most of my good friends behind. But some decisions we have to make not because they are the most pleasing, but because they are necessary in elevating our lives to new levels. In these moments, we struggle with internal battles within our hearts; one part confiding in the comfort of our current life and the other anxious about making a break into a new dispensation. My trip- Machakos en route -on the 11th feels a lot like this battle. I feel bad to have to leave behind my good neighbors and friends I have made in many years, and again I cannot wait to get outside of my comfort zone and embrace a new outfit for my life; meet new friends, make new neighbors. I am making this decision not because I like leaving my good friends, but because it’s a necessary move for my personal growth. Moreover moving into a new area is a good thing for my friends who would want to come visiting as they will constantly have a good excuse to get outside town and come down to the country side away for a day or two far from the city’s tall buildings, traffic snarls and hustle urban environment. As I prepare to make this lifetime trip, where sky gazing, bird watching and culture soaking tops my to-do list, I will not be entirely detached from town as I will periodically need to come to the capital for various work appointments before I am able to build full capacity to work from home, times which I am able to grab a quick sip with friends. Another thing I am excited about is that going into the country side will improve on my exercise routine since the terrain is naturally characterized by hills. I am also able to write more because my dream writing environment encompasses trees, fresh air and the sound of gently flowing water in a river, which I am able to access easily from our farm as a small seasoned tributary passes nearby so really for me relocating to my rural home has many wins. I hope to post on the blog more often and share with you guys life from a different perspective.

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